bubbles

revolution 20what?

2012-01-05T01:01:00.000+08:00

so yes, update it is!
ive been waiting for a while since well as most readers should have realised by now,
my life can be extremely busy. and i tend to get lazy and choose facebooking over having to type blog updates.

so yes, india trip was amazing.
from performing at the konark festival. in Konark.
to chilling in Puri.
to performing in Anggul.
to 12 days in Cuttack learning a beautiful dance meeting beautiful people.
to going to Bhubaneshwar for the International Odissi festival, where so much experience was gained.

last few days has been great. meeting my people, esp. my 3 darling girls, Tachel, Melora, Elysa. love you 3 idiots.

and ok, onto my title.
Revolution 2020 by Chetan Bhagat.
you start the book wondering oh another love story, and as you read it youre kinda confused.
and it isnt a typical story. and really its abt this one man. and it really makes you think twice about how people sometimes just do what they have to do to live.

Gopal and Aarti, the couple you will keep wanting , but their ending, even i dont know yet. 2 days into the book and i have abt 100 pages left. maybe if i stopped blogging i'll finish it up;)

fact. Varanasi, place where people go to die and believe they'll go straight to heaven. the City of Death.

signing off. loves.
S.

picture perfect for the road.

2011-07-21T22:24:00.000+08:00

youre my no.78 post:)
today when we were hanging out, it was so relaxed and easy.
and for those few minutes, we ignored the fact tomorow onwards we are gonna be miles apart.
we left our fears at the very back of minds.
and kept a smile on our faces *at least tried to*
and did our thing.be retards.

there are so many memories engrained both in my mind and heart, that without you, would be simply not memories at all.
i know when i hugged you 3 or 4 times.each time my urge to cry and breakdown grew stronger, but for the sake of us i ddnt.
when Sai walked me back to college, i was on the verge of tears.
again i held back.

i got home.i just walked into my room.
and it started.the tears.the frustration.my fears.
and it wont stop until now.

i know we have skype, and i told you this before, if i have to stay up till 5AM and wake up for college at 6 AM.i would do it for you.
cus youre worth it.
youre more then just worth it.

i love you my darling babylove.
forever you & i <3

When Im With You-Faber Drive [For Rena Yap Specifically]

our final picture together for a long.long time.

i love you my now&forever sister ♥

my ever so late birthday post.

2011-07-13T23:04:00.000+08:00

so yea, im late for the blogpost.
i feel awful, cus every year i post something on my blog about you for youre birthday.
i still remember 2 years ago, i called you for some random reason, & epicly forgot your birthday.you were like "Shob, are you forgetting something?" im like, whatt no la.
then you screamed, ITS MY BIRTHDAY, and i cussed and said babe im so so so sorry.

yea, i guess im not always one of the greatest friends out there.

but to me Rena, you mean the world.
the stars cant compete with you.

In year 8, we were barely talking to each other.
i remember there was this invisible barrier that prevented us from being friends or at the very least talk.
but then, Mr Michael.whether or not he was a good thing in my life, he paired you, me and mirella up to be Science buddies:) i remember initially we were all like "ohmygosh THEM?"
and we organized our first science study session.
you, me, mirella, tach,sai.
that day was epic:) and ever since our friendship has run miles, and weve not once looked back.

so the first 2 terms of year 9, i remember we were so damn close, and then i left to CIE, and it wasnt just you but i lost all my babies. i hated every second without yall.
and year 10 was rough, i know.and there were times you just wouldnt talk to me.
and you ignored me, and i ignored you.

the times during sports day where our competitiveness and control-freakness took over and we fought.
and this year, i remember i hated that you were mad at me.
so much.i cried and cried when i found out you and mel and tach and sai were all having issues with me.
especially you and mel.

but my love, i swear, i have always sworn to protect you *and this is to the rest of the group*
and i always will.

so my darling.im sorry for the times i screwed up, and we were going backwards instead of forwards.

bt the day came, when you started holding my hand again for no reason, when you screamed my name and ran and hugged me.

youre hugs are irreplaceable.
You.are.irreplaceable.

i love you.
and now youre 17! old woman:)
but i know, i wil never have to worry abt you cus you are so strong and capable, that you are just gonna shine brighter then the moon and all the stars combined.

youre beautiful in everyway.
and i see it in every pic of you and me, where in nearly all the photos are photo-taking style and poses are so the damn similar:)

again.i love you.
and again.im coming to KLIA to drop you off.
and cry my heart out.
because even with country barriers, my babylove is growing up :) and we are STILL gonna skype and talk ALL the damn time.
even if it means i stay up till 4 am i will:)

ballet shoes.

2011-07-02T12:46:00.000+08:00

so today.
to-do
-get alevels book. At least the math one.
-paint my wall *important*
~~-try and figure out that pirouette exercise thing from class the other day (~~didnt end very well though)
-clear up room.*epic failure*

Day1.

2011-07-01T15:42:00.000+08:00

well it didnt go THAT bad.

except for the fact i feel like a complete idiot.

ESP during math.

i mean bio was bearable.

Chem, i just need to look thru the stuffs.and go thru it i SHOULD be fine.

but math.

i couldnt effin even do completing a square?

wow.

i guess this is my punishment for not suffering in olevels and doing add maths.

the teacher had asked the class who hadnt taken add maths and i thnk i was the only one who didnt.

i was like WHAT!?

and course, it was VERY obvious. i had no clue what i was doing.

okie so to the next part.

people.

so tzexu and fousing took care of me in the morning.

and i met their friends.one in mind, DL, hes really tall!

and i saw Earlyy!

the realisation that i was standing infront of him set in about 30 seconds too late.

i was likee EARLYYYY!

but it was good, he kept my nerves down reminding me things would go fine.

then i saw JANCEEE:) she brightens my day:) really.

she took me to class.

i was to shy to ask if that was my class, so she asked for me:)

nearly everyone was already in.

in any case a whole bunch of people are still missing, but the approx no. of students in my class...20?

so i kept to myself.loner.

reminded me of year 10!

but the people seem pretty cool.

of course there were 3 guys sitting behind me from ELC.

and course they are the smart pretty interesting people.

i mean , during the course of my 3 classes, they were the ones the teachers most directed their attention towards.

but otherwards.day 1.

i came out alive:)

lucky for me. Friday is my short day.8.30-11.30.3 classes straight.

well till next time.

loves:)

edge of glory.

2011-06-24T15:21:00.000+08:00

so lemme start by blogging about the epicness of yesterday.

so me and the girls slept at what like 6am right?so clearly 11.30 was an aite time to wake up.

at about 1-ish me and my parents and uncle wong rushed off to start college hunting.

yes.college hunting.

essentially it just means checkin out 3 colleges and tryin to see which one is the best.

so first we went to sunway.

awesomely big campus.loved that.

and also there they let me do economics as a part of my curriculum.

so far thats the only college that allows me that.

but it twas pretty grown-up-ish.thats what my parents thought.

esp cus i would be one of the youngest there.

i mean it IS a university aswell.

so that was interesting.

still love the campus though.

then we headed to Help Damansara.

wellm i wouldnt say its like the others.

its more, cosy, homie.

it reminded me of old school fairview, before the crazy renovations.

the old one where everyone was everywhere and it was loud, noisy, rowdy.

but it felt good surprisingly.

im not sure how much i would be able to fit in.

but i felt more right there.

guess who i saw there? that mahfuz dude? from Fairview from like AGES ago.

wierd.

i was actually hoping to bump into Nipunbhai, but clearly that guy is allergic to phones or anything to do with communication=_=

anyways yea.its cool cus i can do my alevels in 3 parts..

but theres a clash, i think , with my dance in India at the end of the year.

so idk=_=

then we went to Taylors again.

its cool as usual.

but so the damn Fairview-like now.

idk i dont LIKE it that much, but i feel like i would blend better and study better there.

its still higher ranked...

and i mean i would have my peeps there.

and theres plaza damas next to it.

and my exams would not be so messed up.

anyways, i decided today to leave my day absolutely free.

damn.wierd.

girls night.indian food.sleepless.

2011-06-23T05:37:00.000+08:00

so yea.

it is 5.25 AM.

i have been up since 9AM yest....

so the day started out pretty aite, tach dropped by my place,

then around 12, elysa at my place then we went to pavi together:)

we wanted krispy kremes but sorta decided to grab 'em at the end of the day*even though we forgot.*

anyways so we ended up at pavi, and tach n me were massively hungry, so we decided to go to the loaf.

expensive?i know=_=

*btw, i took RM0 from my parents that day, and only had abt RM150 in my wallet*

so yea, then we bumped into FouSing and James.

well not bumped.they joined.

we decided to then go karoake? it was like 2 PM.

so we went.apparently we had like 4 hours! WHOA.

Tach n James decided to pick out a whole bunch of love songs, so i ended up screaming my gutts out.

and during their chinese song session i decided to see Mirella and Dito, they were at Forever 21.

GOSH, SALES in Forever 21 AND cotton on.

Epic Awesomeness.

if only i had money.

so then we decided to grab some food nearby around 5 ish, we bumped into Raf, Shafiq and Sharafuddin!

i know right!

its funnnyyy.

in the beginning Rafs cuzzys were in their own world but after catching up it was alot better talking to them

about 7-ish we came back to my place, Mirel,Sam, Lysa, Tach n me.

then we went to Kohinoor in Capsquare cus Tach reallllyy wanted Indian food, so yea.parents took us:)

so that was awesome.the girls enjoyed that awesomely.

on the way back we picked up starbucks.

for me , my 2nd coffee drink for the day.

weve been up ever since.

Mirel went home:( but Sai joined:)

weve been skyping.

dealing with drama.even though funnily.we are OVER high school.

drama never ends does it?

but at least for me i have none.

but in a way im wondering if i MISS all the drama.

it was entertaining;)

so yea.

Tach is asleep. BAHA.

we watched BEASTLY.

alex pettyfer.

sexy.hot.amazing.beautiful.

i love him.

i miss my vampire diaries though.......

Salvatore love

2011-06-22T10:37:00.000+08:00

so, yea today is my girls day, sortof:)
Tachel should be arriving at my place any time soon.
we were supposed to go to bangsar, but im wondering if thats a good idea.
will confirm with the girls, bangsar or midvalley?
either way, that area.

so ive been vampire diaries obsessed since sunday night.
i got season2 and i havent stopped watching im at episode 17 now i think.

its like. stefan and elena, when they were broken up for a while, it broke my heart.
stefan CRIED.and damn it was sad.
katherine, ugh i hate her no matter what.

damon....gosh, he is so misunderstood.he loves elena, but he knows he cant have her. and everyone seems to keep choosing stefan over him.
which sucks.
hes so amazing, his strength his abilities, why wouldnt someone love and care for a guy like him.
sure he has a ice cold stone heart.
he kills just cus he likes it, but hes got a heart nonetheless that feels and hurts and loves.
Damon Salvatore.You are Mine.I love You.
ps.hes uber hot.

and FINALLY, bonnie and jeremy hook up:) they are so cute together:)
and Matt and Caroline, i honestly dont like it.
i think Caroline and Tyler are a better fit.
i wish she had at least given him a chance.
i mean maybe he wouldnt have run away either.

and i hope they tell Jenna the truth, she deserves it.
Alaric is pretty cool.

im obsessed with vamps right now.
i mean i mean i even bought a new vamp book series.
vampire kisses?
i even have a free shirt now:)
its says
"Boys are whatever, Vampires are forever"
:D

its gonna be a good life.

2011-06-21T19:31:00.000+08:00

so ive been meaning to blog.

but the last few days, theyve just been a whirlwind.

my dance has officially started again:)

its an amazing feeling to be back, but lemme tell you the pain in my body is excruciating.

but its worth it.

i finally put up my graduation pics.

and wow, going thru them, taggin everyone. it was heartbreaking.

to know that that part of my life, is just over.

and grad/prom was JUST last week.

i think i havent come to terms with that just yet.

im planning a small sleepover with a few of my girls tom night.

if i join taylors, i start next monday.meaning, i dont have much time.

scary.

we might hang out in bangsar tom afternoon.so yay.

and on thursday afternoon, me n my mum are going to sunway college, then help damansara, then taylors hartamas.

all three.

its still so unbelievable.

my current playlist.

goodlife-one republic

written in the stars-Tinie Tempah

The Ballad of Mona Lisa-Panic @the Disco

Bounce-The Cab

Sorry that i loved you-Anthony Neely

Like we used to- Rocket to the Moon

Monster-Paramore.

new era in our lives

2011-06-18T11:22:00.000+08:00

so its been a while since ive blogged.

clearly for the obvious reason of olevels.

in any case, its been a week since my hell ended.

its surreal that just last week, i was studying my butt off, last saturday we were gettin our nails done, sunday was graduation and prom.

its just so unreal.

i almost wish i could put on that horrible uniform and show up at school.

and i dropped by taylors hartamas yesterday to check out the june intake..

looks like college starts on the 27th of June....

suckers..

i know i said i would take 6 months of, but really...i dont think in my case, thats a good idea.

im really worried about settling in though.

and last night, was awesome:) we surprised Amin for his birthday, and its all thanks to his amazing girlfriend, Sara Amelia:)

kudos to you:)

i mean she ddnt have to do something like that, i doubt i wouldve been able to pull something like that off, i wouldve given up the surprise and spoiled the whole thing.

but in any case, it was great hanging with some of my CIE mates.i mean Bro*Barsam*, Dito, Raf, Mirel,Nadia, Rachel, Aida, TiSien, Izzat were there:) and Sern,Aritz and Shayan were there tooo:)

it twas good, not too big a group.

and i got to sleepover at mirellas house:) YAY:)

anyways, i willll blog properly later..

but right now.

i have a show to get ready for. uh oh.

brace-face.train-tracks.metal-mouth.[no more]

2011-05-10T23:53:00.004+08:00

the braces are off.
beginning to a new time.
few months from now.
things are gonna change.
watch me change.watch me live.
my aim : to live.

Don't let the past steal your present.

~Terri Guillemets

2011-05-10T16:41:00.002+08:00

red rose or white?

-red

salt or pepper?

-salt

pink or blue?

-pink

music or movies?

-music

comedy or horror?

-both

action or adventure?

-both

summer or winter?

- winter

sun or stars?

-stars

hott or cute?

-depends:) cute i think.

walk or run?

- run

funny or romantic?

-funny:) with a lil romantic.

rings or necklaces?

-rings.

camping out or slumber party?

-slumber party

white or dark chocolate?

-milk chocolate (:

night or day?

-night

school or work?

-dance:)

surfing or snowboarding?

-tried neither.but surfing:)

soft candy or hard candy?

- soft

phone or e-mail?

- phone

pencil or pen?

- PEN:)

pizza or chicken wings?

-pizze

dog or cat?

-dogs. or the baby versions of both:)

snow or rain?

-snow.even though ive never experienced it.

fat or skinny?

- toned. *what i want, not what i am*

water or milk?

- water

fruit or vegetable?

-vegetable

inside or outside?

- both.but inside matters more.

friends or family?

- both.

sweet or sour?

- sweet n sour:)

shoe or clothes shopping?

-clothes

long or short hair?

- long

cocky or shy?

- BOTH:)

ocean or pool?

- ocean symbolizes everything.space.openness.but then again.that scares.

baseball or football?

-football

dancing or singing?

- dancing,

couch or chair?

-bed (:

t.v. or computer?

-computer

house or apartment?

-house

hot chocolate or coffee?

- mocha.

white or wheat bread?

- white

rocky road ice cream or butter pecan?

- butter pecan.

cake or pie?

- cake

pretzels or potato chips?

- pretzels.

black or green olives?

-black

strawberries or blueberries?

-strawberries

apple or grape juice?

- apple

frosted flakes or fruit loops

- banana nut crunch:)

oreos or chips ahoy?

- oreos

m&m or skittles?

- M&M (:

fried chicken or fried shrimp?

-fried chicken

strawberry or grape jelly?

-neither.

snickers or milky way?

- snickers

cheese or peperoni pizza?

- bbq chicken.MASALA:)

sausage or bacon?

-mm hard one.

ravioli or lasagna?

- lasagna

cookies or candy?

- cookies

french toast or pancakes?

- french toast.

bowling or rollerskating?

- ice-skating:)

sandals or tennis shoes?

- flip flops

mac and cheese or cheese and crackers?

-mac and cheese

twister or connect four?

-TWISTER.

mexican or itailian food?

-MEXICAN:)

public or private school?

- INTERNATIONAL

poems or short stories?

-short stories

gold or silver?

- silver n gold:)

apple or banana?

- banana.

Vanilla or chocolate?

-choc.

Fall or Spring

- spring:)

McDonalds or Burger King?

- McDonalds

Pepsi or Coke?

- COKE.forever:)

Abercrombie or Hollister?

-Abercrombie

Love or Lust?

- mix.

Truth or Dare?

-truth or dare?:)

500 days.of love.

2011-05-09T16:04:00.002+08:00

so i just watched 500 days of summer.

i ddnt know wt the movie was abt till i watched it.

and surprisingly i enjoyed it.

the quotes are surprisingly sweet.

and of course i was upset when summer ended up marrying someone else,

and tom, meet autumn, which i think..maybe its just showing how life isnt full of coincidences.

and im not just talking abt love or anything..

i just think.

wow.

theres so many what ifs in the world.

like wt if me and elysa never met.

what if me and sai never fought.

what if mel never came to fairview.

what if rena stayed in hongkong.

what if my sister didnt come home that one year to dance.

what if.

and i think that whole concept is so beautiful..

and it makes me appreciate people a whole lot more.

aloneness.

2011-05-06T16:56:00.005+08:00

hey, so yea ICT practicals are over.

the big boys are here now.maths on monday.

anyways i decided to blog today, cus i felt that it might be thereapeutic for me..

so yea.ive been avoiding people.it feels wierd, cus im usually the type of person whos always tryin to be in sync with everyone.and whenever theres an off spot, i always try and fix it.but i guess i just figured wtv that needs to be done, maybe would be better done after olevels.

instead now, im tryin to channel all tht energy into working hard for olevels* which im not.i swear*

and also i just think, maybe this is the best time for me, to do some self-finding.and figuring out myself.without constantly depending on people.

i just feel, even god is tryin to show me tht theres more to life.

i mean even the few people i try to text...somehow the text keeps sayin their phone is off or something..

so its really like im really detached.

and i think most of yall know, im a very social person.i love being around people.just feeling connected...but right now...i dont...

which is scary...

and with this olevels,my stress levels have been out of control..which i think im expressing to people, which end up of course thm being frustrated at me..and me just being frustrated..

i dont know...i guess theres so many in this position...i just dont know wt to do..

ohwell.i dont care who reads this.this is me..tryin to get my words out.cus right now, im sortof of trapped in olevels.

but really.i have to thank my mum alot.shes been someone ive been leaning on a lot recently.i suppose shes the only one who can really just deal with my moodswings.

thank you ma,i love you.and im sorry i cant give you the best mothers day ever this year...i wish i could...but i just cant.

im so angry cus even during ur birthday ...mocks was the same time so we ddnt celebrate.

i just want you to know you mean everything to me.

especially now, whn i feel so.alone.

2011-05-01T15:44:00.001+08:00

so yea i havent been blogging.

but right now, i feel so lifeless.

kill me?

what life do i have?seriously. i sit at home all day.

i feel so.frustrated.

no im not suicidal.

i just hate that i cant do anything.and that even with me not ever going out, my exam prep isnt exactly going very far.

eesh.wish this was all over:'(

another day in the world

2011-04-28T15:37:00.002+08:00

so alright, no school today, no paper.next paper, ICT PAPER 3 next wed.

scared as hell.seriously.

so today, i have NOT done any ict, i did physics.and imma go do some maths or ICT paper 1.

im feeling random.i cooked SPAGETTI for lunch.ikr.me?cook:)

anyways, im sorry, i need inspiration to write.;

i mean i watched Glee episode 18.Born This Way.

and i love the way everyone just accepted the way they are.

i was really surprised to see Quinn Fabray, a.k.a Lucy Kaboosee, get so much positive response.

i guess ive always supported Quinns character, more then all the others.

but no dont get me wrong, i agree she is horrible at times, but weve all seen her true colours, and shes a beautiful caring and well just like anyone else insecure.

but she is able to hold herself so well thru her ups and down and truly shes finding for social power cus she needs some sort of closure.

i genuinely like Quinn Fabray, if you dont too bad.

anyways, i should stop talking abt a fictitious character and get back to work.

ciaoo.

when im with you.

2011-04-27T16:58:00.002+08:00

so clearly my title reveals my obsession with faber drive. ♥

anyways so , today was ICT paper 2.

surprisingly the questions werent too bad.

like they asked to create 2 reports, thats abt it...and even in it, was a lil tricky, but i mean not rocket science.

i printed everything, and i hope i ddnt skip anything, cus im famous for misreading.but idk, lets hope:)

however the ineffiency of some of the teachers got me very annoyed at the end. eesh.

anyways so i have a weak before ICT paper 3.and then i guess starts the real work.

maths...physics...bio...

gosh, things aint easy.

so imma go take a chill pill now, grab a shower and do maths.

and im focusing now.no distractions.

i also realised some people, arent what they seem.

i understand to an extent, but sometimes.it just hurts.

just.hurts.bad.

loveeeeee:) ♥

begging.

2011-04-26T19:20:00.003+08:00

im angry, im more then angry.im scared.im terrified. olevels is no joke, and thats ultimately the first thing stressing the hell out of me.

anyone who noes me, noes i dont deal well under pressure, and thats why i suppose only very few people noe me truly, and very few have accepted me the way i am, and stood by me while i yelled and screamed and cried and insulted. but course those people are jewels in my life.

and i thank my those amazing people.elysa, sai,ren,tach,mirel,mel.yall have seen me at my ultimate lowest.some of you have had me cry in your arms.some of you have protected me from hell itself.i pray to god,to never lose you.cus you guys sure as hell mean more then any boy or thing in the world.

i cant expect anyone new to pop into my life and be that way.

i guess i just expected some people to be different.but you know what everyones the SAME.

maybe this is gods way of playing me.maybe its bad karma. maybe this is punishing me for all the horrible things ive done. but why today.why make me so vulnerable and angry today.

when my first bloody hell effing exam is TOMORROW.

why make me FIGHT.why make me go against ppl.WHY WHY WHY.for once, can you NOT play me?FOR ONCE AGAIN IN MY LIFE, just make THINGS PERFECT AND HAPPY.

god must think its fun to bully me, and wierdly enough, i will STILL pray to god , beggin for help.

and some people.they think they are different.well i thought they were.i guess they werent.

from a very confused and emotionally blasted girl.

god, take the pain and anger i feel away.

i got a world on a string.

2011-04-24T18:30:00.003+08:00

so last few days, ive been,well reevaluating.

alot of things.love.life.friendship.studies.

everything.its amazing, how the lil things just happen to make the biggest difference.

the small words make me smile and happy.its just.fascinating.

anyways so the past clearly comes back to haunt.but i guess everyone need time to heal, and gain strength to let go.

and letting go is somethin' im not good at.

anyone who noes me well enough knows that.

but i guess sometimes we need to take a leap of faith, close our eyes, and just trust that its for the better.

and thts wht i did last night.

i closed my eyes.and took faith.

im not saying its completely over, it just means.its getting there.

and thts one step closer to my ultimate goal.

and it will def help me in my olevels.which by the way, im freaking out for.

so yea, im discovering more and more beautiful songs every day:) which is great.for a music freak.

i hope i find something more interesting to post eventually.

xx.

sayonara b*tches.

loves.

the world is just spinning.

2011-04-20T22:02:00.003+08:00

so yea, my last post was a while back.march:) but today, somehow i gained inspiration to post an update:) surprisingly i know.

so its exactly a week before olevels.im supposed to be stressing.and i mean i am, but in a different way.and honestly i think thats whts scaring me.

i did pretty alright for mock 2, but im still not happy.i think even if i got 1st i wouldnt be happy.

i dont really know why.

all i can think abt is how all the memories i have are so clear, yet in a way everythings fading.

last thursday, shopping with the girls turned out to be one of my most cliche and memorable days ever:)

i have never tried on that many dresses, or well ever touched such expensive dress.

so a lil peek-a-boo into lastthursday:)

and no none of these are THE dress.my prom outfit/s are a secret;) shhhh

so yea.ive been real good lately.studying, avoiding distractions*not very well*

one thing i am dying to do is dance.i just wanna dance.and let loose.just dance for the love of it.

i mean i mean dance class like hell.i get to go just once a week now:( after olevels imma dance EVERY FREAKIN DAY:)

so yea couple of new songs added to my new fav songs.

on the floor.

teenage dream.glee version.

and well other newly discovered songs.

screw.justin bieber concert tom, and im gonna be sitting at home.

screw you tay and mel.u guys are so lucky.

i mean ALL the girls&guys who got tickets and have parents who let them go..

from the bottom of my heart......

screw you:)

so i realised, its nice making new friends, pretty fun too when there are interesting topics to discuss...right?:)

ciao darlz;) cant promise to update.but otherwise, OLEVELS:) here i come.and hell with fairview once this is over.

love you:)

ELYSA CHEN TURNS 15!

2011-03-06T14:41:00.003+08:00

SO i just opened my blog to say

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ELYSA CHEN WANJUN

firstly, i love you.

secondly, CUS WHEN UR FIFTEEEEEN:)

thirdly, ur my best friend.

ok imma copy paste something from december.

ur the best friend i can never reply.

we are gonna grow old and cranky, have kids and we are still gonna remember the days whn we were just mere children.uve been the diamond in my life tht i will never be able to destroy.

uve always given me the truth and uve known tht i can handle more then i could.

u pushed me to the limit of the cliff and instead of being scared and giving in to me u stood behind me and knew i wouldnt fall.u stood there and secretly held me and made me realise i am more then i know i am.and u know my boundaries.ur my rock,my spine.even well my body died, u pumped it to life.behind ur snark comments, ur just my amazing girl.

so.

yea lemme try and rewind some of OUR memories.

2002: grade 2, i met you and realised YAY i finally met a girl who works on my wavelength:)

2003: grade 3, ms michelle year, AHHAHA u me and jin *and i think mel* were inseperable:)

2004: grade 4, u me nadia,against the whole grade.

2005: year 6, hell on earth.we discovered real friendship.

2006: year 7, pretty much learning the skills of fighting, and we held strong.

2007: year 8, THE FUN WE HAD(:

2008: year 9, we learnt stress, but we learnt family.we really grew close. *but 3rdterm was a bit bumpy*

2009: year 10, the year we all suffered some bumps. learning to change and grow and understand together.

2010: year 11, began, so did our crazy journey.

2011: we are gonna graduate as hot young chickas:) and i will remember our memories and build even more:)

i love you lysa.

ur my EVERYTHING:) coconut:)starfish:)jellycake:)bananapeeler:) pinkcheekinsulter:)

dedicated to ELYSA CHEN WANJUN

i have a HEMATOMA

2011-02-13T17:22:00.004+08:00

so, well lemme start of todays post with letting you guys know a very embarrasing story.

i have a hematoma,..on my tailbone, basically its a bump..a very very painful one..

basically i got it cus during tug of war before sports day, during the second round, me and rena had fallen, and i had fallen directly backwards onto my tailbone, im pretty sure a number of people saw me lying on the floor laughing, and screaming,i cant get up..srsly for a while, i couldnt.

anyways thanks to that, according to my mum, it can also cause me feeling horrible, thts why i now understand why on friday i was feeling so sick..

on friday in school, after break i just couldnt handle it, i srsly felt like i was about to faint..so thnkfully i went to the clinic, and i fell asleep there...* may i remind you, cus of my hematoma, i cant sit properly, and i cant lie down straight...*

and then after a lil while in the clinic i was seriously in deep sleep, i felt someones hands on me, and i heard a voice, i was like WTF....i looked up,and ofcourse i see this really tall guy standing over me with that concerned expression (yasser woke me up)

and thus i couldnt go back to sleep, and we just talked to ms agnes (the nurse) a lil bit, i actually think she was doing all the talkin, and then me and yasser decided to go back to class.

mm i think i skipped accounting, yay(:

then after school basically had chem at 3.30, so i was basically lazing around till 3.30, i ddnt eat..

left school at 4.30...

went to snooze at home for a bit...then at night my parents, me and my aunty went to see the green hornet...

anyways, i ddnt really eat the whole day fri * which is wierd.

saturday i had 2 tuitions, and i was feeling srsly sick.

the bump got worse:/

we went to some ICCR function, i think it was one anniversery inaugaration, n then i was in such a crap mood, cus the bump hadnt let me sleep the night before, and then went to lake club for dinner, which btw i barely ate...

SATURDAY WAS JUST CRAPPY FOR ME.

i woke up this morning, went to sutra hoping i could dance, but obviously the bump well it hurts bad enough that walking is tough too. so i came home...bakes cookies for tomorow, and other stuff came up:/ i got started on yet another medication, and well i think all these meds are havin some effect on my body, cus im feeling so blegh... i ended up sleeping from just after lunch till around 5.15..

anyways im nervous and excited for valentines tom, i got alot of work to do.

2011-02-10T20:44:00.002+08:00

ok so today(: 100211 ♥

class is uberrr boring, and today we officially finished our physics syllabus!

ohmygosh!

bio was boring=_= seriously, everyone was so bored, like noone even talked!

then break was so-so,was just bumping from mirella&izzat&the rest to RenLysaNaorinMelora table.

tach came after break, AWESOMENESS.something abt 8hour sleep?

eesh, had period pain, decorated our class & thnkfully skipped accounting.

i hate merins class nowadays! seriously. and after what happened between her and mirel, im beginning to dislike her.

anyways other after school, me,mirel and yasser walked down to mamak to have lunch(:

usual order of Maggi Goreng PEDAS *extra tofu*, with my can of coke.

when we paid i took yasser with me, cus tht cashier dude, is CREEPY.

like with they "thank you baby" and tht day he was telling mirel " this baby from my country" and he pointed at me, i was like WTF!

PEDOPHILE ALERT!

anyways on the way back, mirel went straight home so it was just me and yasser, was great just talking(:

then yea............................................(: bumped in tach & *AHEM*!

and then classsss.and well other stuff happened, and too lazy to type it.

anyways i tried catching a snooze after my very nice shower, and i couldnt=_= bloody hell.

anyways.

xoxo b*tches.

LOVEYOU(:

-shobs.

O-M-G

2011-02-09T11:25:00.004+08:00

kays sooooo recap since like what monday?

i went to school as usual, i think tht day was pretty cruddy.i was like soo uber bored,

me, and the usual crazy group started this water fight war(: HAHAHA, and the water was like FREEZING ICE COLD! so it was totally funn watchin each other drenched into water!running around like lunatics(:

and then cus mr ravin *the physics teacher* totally ditched us for the after school classes, i left at 4.30 instead of 6! HOLLA! but it was jammed anyways so got home late...on the way home i had to mcDs, cus apparently there was no food at home, and btw the whole day i hadnt eaten, i was STARVING.

got home, ate, and i was so tired i couldnt resist..i slept!

for like what an hour? ( so lil right!) , then i had to get up cus i had my dance class(:

my dance class which starts at 8pm and is SUPPOSED to finish at 9.30pm ended up finishing around 10.10pm.

totally LOL factor right?

but it was def a good class(:

kays tuesday, LONG EFFING DAY, only a couple of us stayed the entire length till 6.thnkfully

and awesomely sine i ddnt have class from 1.20 to 3.30,

me,mirel & ditto went to mamak to eat LUNCH, cus all 3 of us were SO UBER HUNGRY!

ended up coming back and then i played bball for a lil bit.

it was OUR VERSION.

so it was 3 on 3. Tachel, Me , n a freaking good shooter *shes like wt yr8*, and then Rena, Naorin n another junior girl.

LOL we could seriously sue each other for sexual harrasmentttt(: HAHAHAHAHHA

so yea then at 6, left school went STRAIGHT to dance prac.

ended up finishing at 8.but it was short rehearsal but def intense, i was sweating within the first 10 mins!

today(: 090211(:

i woke up and was like i SO dont wanna go to school.

My mum was like gonna let me skip, whn of course my conscience said "No Shobhna, Go to school, be a good girl"

HAIZ! WTF, i went, and in the morning i had physics but mr ravin had to go to do some passport thingy?so no physics=_=.

then ICT, at least we started HTML. and then BREAK.

break.break.break.well, what can i say(:

i got told to write a testimonial thingy for myself, like stuff ive done and all, eesh, idk, too much things to write or too lil?

i gotta finish it today and pass it to ms.thana tom *ps note that im actually adding ms, and mr infront of all the teachers names(: *

anyways im home now, came home cus after break i have no classes(:

but ive got tuition at 12-2 ACCOUNTING.

then 4.45 till 6.45 MATHS.

awesome life eh?(:

well xoxo

Shobs.

A lil' bit

2011-02-06T17:53:00.002+08:00

Aite, so this last week of CNY hols have made me realise 2 things,

firstly.Olevels are round the corner, and mocks...they are so super near.

secondly.tht life just ISNT the way we always want it to be.

so over this week, ive been studying more then usual.which of course has freaked me out.

ive literally been having tuitions everyday. and yea u guys are thinking TUITIONS, WTH.

explained reason: the school im in, has no sense of time, we are screwed.weve barely covered syllabus*some subjects arent even done* and we have not even had past years. we.are.screwed.

and Mock 1 is in less then a month! are they freakin' outta their mind.

ohwell.

anyways, im hoping everybody is ok with me now, i just dont want anymore problems, i just wanna be friends with everyone and let the drama take backseat for once.

update on my relationship with my calculator, looks like im getting engaged soon, i wonder how the wedding is gonna be.

i hope my calculator looks good:) i know right, this is called Shobhna Havin' A Psychotic Breakdown Momemt (SHAPBM)

so this year CNY i raked in like RM50 in total.which totally sucks i mean i get why, its like i barely went out, or basically saw anyone, so actually ok la.

but still i miss the days whn i got rm 350 and all.

this year CNY was dead for me, i mean alot of my neighbourhood our age people werent around, like one of my close friends, June. Shes gone to study in the UK, how freaking amazing(:

but its sad when u cant see the whole family spirit.

last night went to Santini/San Francisco Steakhouse at KLCC(: had a really nice dinner with parents.

im glad school starts tom cus then i can finally get back to the routine of studying, which is i think a kick in the ass i need.

loves.

xx.

-Shobs.

2011-01-20T22:53:00.002+08:00

idk, im tryin and tryin but all u do is think im lying...

im not tryin to think abt anything but us right now.

i am not tryin to defend myself, cus i ddnt do anything...well i THOUGHT i ddnt.

so im sayin sorry cus i ddnt NOE wt was going on.

and im tryin to take it back.but u just think its THAT easy for me to keep tryin to apologise.

when u dont even care abt listening to my side.

2011-01-19T22:24:00.002+08:00

i ddnt noe you felt that way.

talk to me, or else you;re right, we are drifting away.

and we are gonna lose everything weve worked at for years.

i dont wanna lose it, and i know you dont believe me, but i would not ever endanger our friendship.

so talk to me, we needa sort this out.

and yea, u shud noe wt ive been goin thru and i will hear ur side too.

2011-01-19T22:02:00.003+08:00

ok so this post, is to some people who mean alot to me.

and over the last year or so, things have been getting alot harder.to relate, to understand.

and i think that sometimes we forget the exact reason why we became such amazing friends.

remember in yr9, i remember we were going thru hell, but i remember the one thing that got me thru, but it was you guys who were the reason i fought so hard and woke up in the morning.

so i know there are soo many unresolved issues.

and its gonna be hard to get thru it, but instead of just letting it fester & destroy all the friendship weve built, we need to get it out..

to one of you, i know its hard to believe people whn there are so many things running thru your head.

but im not your boyfriend, your mother or your enemy. im your best friend your soul sister.

i would NEVER ever, hurt you.i wish it would be easier for you to believe me, and i know theres so much for you to not believe.

but i promise i never ever went on your territory, i never even tried.it was not my place.and im sorry for tryin to help whn maybe instead i shudve stood behind you. i swear, i woul never hurt you, and i would never do something.i promise you i have been trying so so hard to keep you from getting hurt, cus i just wanna see you happy, and i know that thats what makes you happy.

but like i told you, im here for you.if that thing makes you happy, im happy.if that thing hurts you, im th first one to jump out with a shotgun,*with your permission*.theres so much to tell you,but im so scared you will hate me more.that you will not believe me, whn i promise you, all im sayin is the truth.im scared im gonna lose you, cus i miss the girl who used to jump around being bhangra with me, the girl who i dance battled with on the dance floor that one time, the girl who just fit right into my life without a doubt.i promise you, i will tell you everything.so please talk to me, and just look at me and remember the girl you made friends with 2 years ago, that you slept over with like,several times.

im sorry.

and to elysa chen.im here.

2011-01-14T01:52:00.001+08:00

so this past week, ive been good, i stayed so clean.i backed off.

and tonight, in the process of looking out for people, i had to ruin that.

i heard an unwanted voice, i just got thrown back to square 1.screw it man.

its sad cus some people just dont understand what an apology is.they dont value it so they dont get that by sayin sorry, and prob even the truth, things would be easier.

instead of hiding behind artificial things.

comeon,dont keep harming urself worse and worse everynight.

pain is pain.its an emotion.

feel it, and detach.the emotion is still there, but detach.

thats how to deal with it.

some people just cant figure that out.they feel sorry for themselves and give in.

im no exception.

but its just annoyin..

eesh i should be sleeping!

ok.goodnight world.

n a lil somethin to izzat khan.

im always here for you(: stay hot kays?

love you.

its funny how this month seems to be a bit of challenging month for many people. not just me.

xoxo.

-S-

my best friend from grade 2

2011-01-12T21:46:00.002+08:00

ok so..in the last week or so, ive learnt alot abt guys.

how they can be really great guys on one hand, but then how they are 2 faced and behind tht mask, its just a big annoyin JERK.

so yea, how could he do that to her,

she never *rarely ever* said no, how could he end up being a *no offence* DICKHEAD PERV!

i took a chance and believed him and gave them my blessing, i mean shes my best friend,my soul sister, shes family to me, and i protect the ppl i love, at any cost, so for her, i am stayin away, and just gonna listen to what SHE needs.

im gonna be HER rock thru wtv choices shes made.

ive never left her behind thru the years, and i know SHE knows somewhat of what shes doing.

shes smart,intelligent,beautiful,sexy,sweet,funny,caring,well i could go on and on, and well guys forget that the girl isnt just this one "thing", look at her, and go thru her attributes.

shes NEVER given up on me.ever, and even recently with my own lil messup she was the one in my place, wanting to murder, but holding down cus she knew,it was a journey I had to take.

shes let me cry on her shoulder,and yesterday i let her cry on me.

she let me act like a b to her, and shes done the same to me.

she lets me steal the chicken in her soup, and well, idk, i love her.

shes my sayang, and well i noe this post is just for her, but

this goes out to all of you.

Saiyara, Rena, Melolo, Mirella, Tach,SeJin, Sam, Elysa,

you're my sayangs from long time.and i will always always no matter what you think, im here for you..

and btw to all of you guys, im SO proud of you guys, ur PP's are AWESOME, and u guys are just DA BOMB;) i noe yall are tired out, and thus we havent been able to be "connecting" on the same levels, esp cus im in a diff class, but thank you.. loves
-S-

2011-01-12T14:42:00.003+08:00

ok so yes,its been about a week since my last update!

but ive been BUSY!

i mean with the ended drama * WE ALL KNOW WHAT*

and plus with SCHOOOOL!

i mean its seriously time, cus olevels is so near.barely 14 weeks to our first exam!

and barely 8 weeks to our first MOCKS!

wow.

lemme copy paste a rough version of my life from now till olevels.

mon:phy,chem,maths,afterschool

phy till 6.danceclass.8.

tue:ict,chem,bio,maths afterschool till 6.comehome, tuition,or sleep.

wed:ict,phy, come home arnd 10.30 then 2 ttns after *today 2nd tuition replaced by dance

thu:bio,phy,acct,afterschool bio till 6.acct ttn after.i think.

fri:bio,maths,chemistry,acct,a

fterschool chem till 6.phy ttn 8-10.

sat:chem ttn 10-12, bio ttn 2-4

sun:dance class & ttn,study or sleep!

its SO Wat THE SHIZZZZ!

i noe!

and then i just realised today SPORTS DAY IS IN A WEEKKKK!

im so annoyed abt one thing.like WTH.ive ALWAYS been there for suport.

morning was annoying:/

thankfully i left school early.

i mean 6 EVERYEFFING DAY!

crazy!

ok lo, i am hungry.

and yea for those curious ppl...

no im not COMPLETLY ok.

getting there, just a lil distracting at times.

and hey ELYSA CHEN!

I LOVE YOU!

listen to cinderella from CHEETAH GIRLS:P

ok lame but u get the point.

wait lemme post the vid HERE

anyways, sorry for a blur post;)

loves

-S-

2011-01-03T22:29:00.001+08:00

And I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing you were still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?..{Neyo}

And my mates are all there trying to calm me down
'Cause I'm shouting your name all over the town
I'm swearing if I go there now
I can change his mind turn it all around

And I know that I'm drunk but I’ll say the words
And he'll listen this time even though they’re slurred
Dialed his number and confessed to him
I'm still in love but all I heard
Was nothing {The Script}

What if I need you baby?
Would you even try to save me?
Or would you find some lame excuse
To never be true
What if I said I loved you?
Would you be the one to run to?
Or would you watch me walk away
Without a fight {Ashley Tisdale}

The song lists go on and on.

why.

2011-01-03T15:47:00.002+08:00

was it all a lie?did u just pretend?

just take the knife out already, you stabbed me, u broke me, arent u happy already?

u got exactly what you want.tell me whats going on.im so clueless, and you expect me to just not care.wow thats ur plan, to not care.not one act of niceness.not even TRYING to make me feel better.

worst part did badly for exams.im locked in till june.

even worse, i miss you.

xoxo

-S-

2011-01-02T21:39:00.002+08:00

owkays, SO my day has BEEN long.

it was great dancing so much(:

the senior im supposed to be understudyin for that super difficult dance we are JUST learning, she ddnt come! SO i did her part with the rest of the seniors, which obviously meant i was CLUELESS!

bahahahahahahah, BUT it was good!

im so glad.for the first time ive danced tht dance;)

how awesome(:

ive managed to keep some sortof distance from my phone, not too many texts or phonecalls today.barely even one, so ive been really on my tight leash,which a total improvement.

reminding u guys i TOTALLY have OCD! *obsessive-compulsive*

so yea means when i want something or fixated, PLUS im a virgo, i like plans, i like havin a plan.

i feel really wierd when theres no plan.i mean for anything.my school, my studying, my dance,my loves, everything.

i just like plans.

i even get super pissed when my parents promise me like a movie and then they cancel, its like UGH, i get SUPER mad.its just NOT natural;)

otherwise, today was good so far.

i totally havent absorbed the fact, school is starting tom!

SCREW IT! i dont give a *toooot*

i mean i just DONT wanna go.BLEGH, 6 months left.just gotta suffer through it.

after olvels HAHAHAHAHA IMMA GO WILD;)

anyways so im thinkin abt maybe creating little routines to some dances like telephone, amplifier, shawty get loose, i mean just random la, so comment if u think its a good idea, and if anyone wanna join me?i mean chreographin is like playing with movements.and i mean i would love to play around with other ppl other then just watchin different videos on youtube.

so yea.

imma go to my phone, and my room.

I NOE stay AWAY from the phone.

i know.tryin, but very hard.

okie, so yea.blog later;)

Ciao,

xoxo,

-S-

2011-01-02T11:24:00.002+08:00

so yea, the 2nd day of the year.

i was actually planning to write a lil somethin' at 1AM, but then i totally was lazy.

i expected a few phonecalls.unfortunately the IDIOT friend totally forgot me.

thanks nik:/

i ended up falling asleep at 1.30 and i got like 2 or 3 wakeup calls, all of which i insisted they let me sleep;)

i was supposed to have chem this morning, but while i was sleeping i was really outa it, so i canceled *without telling my mum*

so mum got angry a lil.i mean it wa srs scolding, but yea.but i got dance at 1 anyways, and im prob gonna be stayin in my dance school and dancing till about 8.or i dunno it just REALLY depends on the dances and stuff.

but ive been missing dance.like last few days esp, i just need to release.

i mean yea i do feel like crying, but i at the same time i DONT wanna.

so i figure dance and music, its always been my outlet why would it bail on me now,

plus this bloggin thingy,

im betting ZERO people read this, which is totally good too, i mean i can write all the BS in the world abt people and they wont realise theyre getting punched.

but okie that sounds terrible.backstabbers, liars, cheaters, ugh i HATE them.

they make it on my top 3 characteristics i hate.

unfortunately im being a hypocrite on this lil issue, i mean its just like some people , i dont understand why they lie, but at the same time i care too much abt those people to get mad and give up our friendship.

yea yea, sounds pathetic.

Whateverrr(:

i just listened to koko's new song.SO nice;)

okie so will update this in a while so ciao;)

xoxo,

Shobs

New Year Morning

2011-01-01T10:07:00.002+08:00

Good Morning,

so i woke up several times thanks to the new year msgs.

my mum woke me up saying u have to wake up now, we are going to temple.

then shes like threatening me, u better wake up now, u have to be ready by the time i get home from ward rounds etc.

haiz.

then wake up, then my dads screaming HAPPY NEW YEAR.im like UGH, so not in the mood.

had a wierd dream.like REALLY wierd.kinda upset me:/

so im totally bummed, not psyched at all abt today.i was SUPPOSED to have chem today,bt my teacher canceled THANK GOD.my mums been pushin the classes like crazy.

like i dont even have a choice.

i guess i better go get ready, but yea happy new year people.even though its JUST another day.

xoxo,

Shobs

Happy New Year

2011-01-01T02:54:00.002+08:00

SO, guess what! I revamped my Blog.

so with some help, i need you guys to help me keep it there.

i figure, bloggin could be a good outlet for me..

i mean i love talking, here i can go on and on.

so its new years.

so happy new year?

somehow its not really tht great of a year so far.

my year ddnt end tht great either.

i spent my countdown in my room, on my bed reading, blasting music.

im just so..frustrated.and confused.

this shouldnt be happening.NOW.

or to me.

but yea, was wishing ppl which is good.

but the year started so pathetically.

did u NOT see the fireworks?oh right, they were barely there.

so its 1.1.11.

im on my laptop at 3 AM typing away for some -god forsaken reason.

so guys, i hope uve had a better end to your year then i have.

hope the year turns out well.for all of us(:

xoxo,

Shobs.

its a sleepy saturday(:

2009-09-26T16:52:00.002+08:00

ok so randomness is takin over me.

man bloggin takes TIME!

and i really am in love with new music(:

SO PLEASE PLEASE GIMME NEW SONGS TO DOWNLOAD!

and man russell peters is DAM funny.a tad sick, and so its sooo uncomfortable watchin infront of my parents, cus they sooooo dnt think its decent.anyways i gotta go get ready for ma show tonite(:

so later loves(:

i love you(:

navrathri...

2009-09-22T15:29:00.002+08:00

hey ok so its been past a wk since ive been 14....

doesnt actually make a diff...

sighh i need to like revap my blog agen..

havent had much time.

cus now its navarathri, so there are tons of performances.

like i had on sunday, then yest,

and then fri,sat,sun, mon..

am sooo sleepy..

ive been downloading new songs.

so if anyone has any suggestiions please leave it in my chatbox..

2009-09-10T21:28:00.002+08:00

ok so my bday is in a couple of hours..

sighh.doesnt feel rite...

school is so different now.just soooooo diff.

was tryin to do some chemistry hw, and i sucked. i had to ask my dad hw to do it.

hmm i miss my sister.she went back to australia yest nite.

i was cryin buckets...

and i still miss her.

no matter how many times we fought, i loved her!

sighh..ive been REALLY tired in the last few days..sighhh

hopefully wont be toooo tired tom!'

oh guess wt im takin abt 11 subjects..cool rite...

very hard though.

oh well gonna go, lets see hu remembers m bday tom(:

2009-09-03T10:52:00.002+08:00

aiyooo. im so lazy to blog so often like my fellow bloggers.

hmm so guess wt last thursday exactly a wk ago, i managed to buy the 3rd Night World book(:

WOOHOOO!

and i ALSO managed to watch kaminey.

it was AWESOM!actually im not supposed to watch it, cus like in the newspaper and online it said the movie is pg13 but whn we got there it said that it was 18 PL, i dnt noe whether they randomly let me in or i actually looked 18!

it was so awesom!

i loveeeedd shahid, he is sooo super hot!like burning volcanic hot XD

i swear he will ALWAYS be the b'wood star that i love! (unless some other greatlooking, sweet and witty guy comes along, then BON VOYAGE SHAHID!)

hmm merdeka day was EFFIN boring!

no fireworks. and i had dance rehearsal at 4. and it only ended like 8. but it was like proper rehearsal it was like rearrangin becus there are gonna be SOOO many dancers dancing for that one show!

finally ive made the invites for my bday.sucks having abt 15 as maximum amount of ppl...

but i seriously have to fnish the confirming stuff.z.

amazingly on the first day of school ive got a dance show, quite small cus its an exhibition openin, but the dance we actually learnt it in like 1 day cus we had abt 6 days to make it perfect and performing material!

and we suck!

but its a very emotional dance, so its more abhinaya then the dancing bits..

usual its abt krishna and radha.mainly abt radha.

her longin for krishna basically.

krishna is just like this amzing guy and he is basically like radhas soulmate but the thing is, he still plays around with other girls, but he always insists his only one is her.

and most abhinaya dances revolve around the both of them usually like them being apart and the pain.

cus radha is just a VERY VERY jealous and dramatic girl!

hmm ohwell gonna go for a while!CYA LATER(:

my day..

2009-08-26T22:53:00.002+08:00

ola mi amigas(:

ok so this morn i had dance class..

it was interesting..

i was one of the few master said had passion(:

which is good.thank god guna aneh took most of the class.

cus like at the end master tok over, and he hit my leg cus it was wrong:P[it wasnt really hard though]

and he started gettin reall pissed..

came home and had my shower.

i used 2 types of shampoo.one smelled like lavender, the other coconut and orchids so after that my hair smelled real good and it still smells good now(:

my knee developed a real bad bruise from last nites dance class.had contemporary.

amazing rite, bruise from dancing...well we learnt how to fall and all, so that hurt..

hmm desperate housewives have quite a twisted plot did u noe that!

and oh yea, im gettin started on my bday party plans.

i have an idea where the place is and hopefully my best frenz all come!

cus i decided until my 16th bday i wud have simple bday parties with my best frenz.

thats all, so hopefully they can sleep over after(:

tachel,sai,lysa,naorin,sammy and bb are in...

hopefuly the rest are too(:

i hope noone forgets my bday:(and everyone remembers i exist on my bday(: cus if not thats just 'straight up gangsta' (tay i read somewhere apparently this is ghetto????????)

anyways yest nite i finished the 2nd nite world book.ive read both books in like 1 and a half weeks.

im gettin the 3rd one tom.and hopefully gonna watch kaminey tom(:

SHAHID(:

tay and me are gonna try and speak ghetto when school starts.

unfortunately shes gota head start and im so not that type of person, but for mi chica im gonna try(:

but my mama wants me to speak like a babylonian so i cant help.

but my folks lemme do wat i wana:P

my phone aint in yet:(

am gettin a xpress music 5730:P

the new one..

it is smokin hawt:P

okok i noe its just a phone wtv but its ma boo:P

haha

anyways gotta learn ma ghetto, so gd nite!

loves shobi(:

dancee

2009-08-25T19:00:00.002+08:00

Sutra Dance Theatre

that is the place where i learn my indian classical dance.

odissi&bharatnatyam...

hmm its ALOT of fun..but ALOT more hardwork..

its like a constant battle internally bt in a good way.

it makes me stronger, both physically and mentally.

they are pushin my batch of students, especially my fellow group of dancers.

they are tryin to make us the seniors which is totally fair enuf since thats the cycle.

and now i ***MIGHT*** go to india with them for the india tour for 5 weeks.and maybe in late oct for one week to northern malaysia.

i say might cus i need to work VERY VERY hard to be able to dance up to master's expectation.

my master whos simply my guru is called Ramli Ibrahim. i really believe he is an amazing man whos broken barriers to make indian dance what it is.

so for yall hu think just becus i go for dance prac almost every day sometimes, im giving up my childhood...u ARE WRONG.

fair enuf its different and i have to give up stuff.

but its just a different childhood, one with oppurtunities some can only dream of..

i choose to dance so much. bt im makin one thing clear, i love dance.but im being honest there are some ppl i noe (like my sister) who love dance much much more then me or anyone out there.they live to dance, its just their passion(:

but i DO wana improve my dancing skills.not just classically but u noe i noe ive got 'some' skills in hip hop and all!

SO IM GONA IMPROVEE!(:

sigh hmm tryin to customize my blog(:but as i said im sucky at tis stuff:P

2009-08-25T18:47:00.001+08:00

Emergency Room(:

(Akon)
Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa
Ey

(Rihanna)
[Verse 1:]
I was pickin up your clothes in the closet (closet)
I was bout to throw your jeans in the washer (washer)
Till I saw a piece of paper sayin tasha (Tasha)
I gotta say I found this a bit shockin
And some reciepts here that say you went shoppin
You bought some Nikey shoes
But why you buyin stockings?
Boy how could you lie to me?
I thought you would die for me
I'm not accepting another apology.

[Chorus:]
After three years Ima let it go
Can't stand around cryin no more
Got your bags packed sittin by the door
Ima leave you heart broken on the floor
You gonna be in the Emergency Room
I'm standing by your bed
And so tempted to pull out your IV
You gonna be in the Emergency Room
I'm fightin with myself
I can't hurt you even though you hurt me
You gonna be in the Emergency Room
Tryin to call a nurse but nobody can help you now
Let me see you try to live without me
Now wheres your heartbeat?
Flat line on the E-K-G

[Verse 2:]
Well I was home late at night watchin TV
Got a call from my girl sayin RiRi
Saw your man in the club
I thought he was out of town doin business
Said that he'd be back in three weeks
Now I'm mad (mad)
Sittin in the kitchen gettin sad (sad)
Lookin at your pictures
Boy how could you lie to me?
I thought you would die for me
I'm not accepting another apology.

[Chorus:]
After three years Ima let it go
Can't stand around cryin no more
Got your bags packed sittin by the door
Ima leave you heart broken on the floor
You gonna be in the Emergency Room
I'm standing by your bed
And so tempted to pull out your IV
You gonna be in the Emergency Room
I'm fightin with myself
I can't hurt you even though you hurt me
You gonna be in the Emergency Room
Tryin to call a nurse but nobody can help you now
Let me see you try to live without me
Now wheres your heartbeat?
Flat line on the E-K-G

(Akon)
I did you wrong girl (I did)
Had a bunch of numbers in my phone girl (I did)
But we been in this relationship to long girl
For you to be listening to your silly home girls
Better go on girl
Now baby think about it
Everything we do they gonna read about it
Put it on the radio and TV outlet
Do you wanna see your picture in that paper?
You know them haters
You hear that 808
The drum that's my heartbeat
I'm going numb
I said Rihanna, I'm feelin stressed
I'm goin under cardiac arrest

(Rihanna)
You gonna be in the Emergency Room
I'm standing by your bed
And so tempted to pull out your IV
You gonna be in the Emergency Room
I'm fightin' with myself
I can't hurt you even though you hurt me
You gonna be in the Emergency Room
Tryin to call a nurse but nobody can help you now
Let me see you try to live without me
Now where's your heartbeat?
Flat line on the E-K-G

BRING IT ON!

2009-08-25T17:04:00.003+08:00

woww. i just watched the new bring it on moviee.

christina millan is pretty good.

i think the movie is AWESOME, but a tad farfetched(:

and tayyy u are SO rite, Evan IS sooo cute!

and it was real cute how those big latino guys helped out and stuff(:

and whn evan kissed lina! MAN!

sorry, good movie(:

plus i loved the final routine of the sea lions.

it was very funky.wish they did more though...

anyways will update later..(:

seeya(:

finally.

2009-08-25T01:15:00.003+08:00

woww, i FINALLY updated the blog!

i got off my lazy bum (not literally), &did it.

its prob cus im so 'upset' rite now. i from now on will try NOT to use the word 'depressed' cus man, i dnt wana end up being a 'depressed' person.

mann im so blurr. i wanna see KAMINEYYY.

see shahid kapoor(:showing off his new BODDYY(:

man hes sooo 'hot hot'!♥

godd.if i could EVER meet him.i wud.

KAREENA is so dumb to have lost him!

hmm new songs update. (the ones ive been obsessed)

-dhan te nan

-fatak

-masakali

-te amo

-emergency room

-good girls go bad

MY ULTIMATE FAV series:P

-GOSSIP GIRL

-90210

-army wives

-ghost whisperer

-desperate housewives

ok hopefully my next blog is more interesting(:

love(: (especially to SOMEONE)

SHOBHNA(:

2009-07-11T11:49:00.003+08:00

♥THIS POST IS DEDICATED TO RENA YAP!♥

Baby im so so so sorry I forgot!

U noe I cnt help these things

AND u noe I love u ta bitz no matter wt!

So happy bday baby!ur a freakin oldie!but I love u even though!

Ur gonna be a GREAT GREAT 15yr old!

Im soooo sorry!

Just remember I OWE YOU BIG TIME!

Ur my bff for LIFE!

Lovee u!

2009-07-11T11:36:00.000+08:00

Hmmm...

My life is close to perfect right nowJ

Great life.great frenz.

One prob.stupid stupid exams.

Once exams are over im gonnna goo wild!

Geo first day!like WTH I dnt even need to study geo,hist, lit..its USELESS to me cus next yr im full complete science stream..i dnt need these subjects..

Sooo annoying..hu cares abt France’s agriculture status? I SOO dnt!

Okie my total PET PEEVE is

-liars! Esp the ones that lie straight to my face

-backstabbers! So cnt handle them. But I wud so take my sweet sweet revenge!

-people who dnt get the message the first time.

:Phope to post soon(J

long timee:)

2009-07-06T18:53:00.002+08:00

wow. its been A WHILE since i last blogged o_O

reasons? lost interest.became busy in dance.became busy in general.

sigh..the other day i was reading everybody's blogs (instead of studyin:P)

reminded me that I shud start too..

i honestly wanted to redo my entire skin..but im stil looking for the perfect one..

EXAMS: next wk! im so not ready! but oh well..dealin with the fact IB screwed me up!(:

and its aite..

i mean literally ever since ive come back to CIE ive changed a ton(:

good&bad

im startin to get interested in songwriting and song composing and stuff.

thx to mr matt:P

& EVEN SINGIN!

so nott me!

plus lifes been stressful..

social life.personal life.school life&all the crap..

well cnt do much..

panadols(:

anyways till next time i decide to blog

cyaa!

loves

shobi:)

2009-04-24T15:23:00.002+08:00

ok, why the heck is everyone making their blogs private???, i dont really understand:P

ohemgee this week..im back ppl:)back in CIE, without my best frenz:(but i gues first day without them made me realise hw much they mean to me..i really was lonely first day..but i guess they will ALWAYS be my best frenz:)

and i realised ive got like quite a few frenz in CIE..cus im officially decided, im gonna be frenz with EVERYONE!

ok lemme total my list of frenz now, CIE and IB

♥♥ren*IB

♥♥tay*IB

♥♥lysa*IB

♥♥sai*IB

♥♥sejin*IB

♥♥chang*IB

♥♥sam*IB

♥♥yuxu*IB

♥♥naorin*IB

♥♥melora*IB

♥bb*IB

♥♥jancee

♥♥mirel

♥♥riya

♥♥aimy

♥novita

♥lauren

♥♥matt

♥♥zaomingg

♥♥jo

♥♥ko

♥♥shahin

♥♥ali

♥♥edwin

♥♥aminn

♥kingsley

♥♥noman

♥♥fousingg

♥ron

♥hojun

♥howard

♥james

plus i *think* ive been bonding with my class alot:)

so even though i still shed tears for my best frenz in IB...i still noe hu to love in CIE too...

*did u noe, gossip in fairview spreads like a raging fire. i swear*not even true gossip

2009-04-11T22:07:00.003+08:00

wow.KLCC.

bores me.it honestly does.

i mean its crowded and ive been there tons of times.bt its better then pavilion.

i mean it was FUN today.even though not the ENTIRE gan was there.!

loll.TAY, SAM,im very much stressing both of you!

tay enjoyin char kuay teow in p-p-penang

sam enjoyin phil-iphinnes!

hahaahha

kay so we barely did anything..and basically am NOT gonna rant abt the WONDERFUL day!loll..

kay

1. MOVIE CHOICE!

'knowing'.....stars nicholas cage....

DANG COOL YO!

ohk.

watched 'dance india dance' whn i got home!

i so ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ prince n siddesh n salman n jai ! but mainly prince and siddesh!

kay am bored so CYA! and btw

i love u!

2009-04-06T15:28:00.003+08:00

sooo ppl..my bloggss...haiz..tay said to make it more personall..no clue how!!!

i changed my number ppl!so for yall hu want my number please askk!

im a maxis person now.............................

omg, first day of holiday and missin everyone like effin so much!!

oh i discovered some awesum songs..mainly by boa!

Touched-Boa

Scream-Boa

Obsessed-Boa

Hypnotic Dancefloor-Boa

Energetic-Boa

Burn-Jessica Mauboy

Blame It-Jamie Foxx ft T-Pain

Homecoming-Hey Monday

Im totally in love with homecoming!

LOVE the video!AND lyrics!

ok..i sprained my ankle last nite:(after more stressin dance rehearsals..haiz the show is like nxt month!and these dances are killling me... thank god like tonite theres a dress rehearsal for rasa unmasked so the usherers have to be there so i get to miss class...my ankle getsa break:)....

im too lazy to blog rite nw so cya later!

2009-04-03T20:48:00.000+08:00

i cant believe im leaving fairview Ib..well its not official but its a really really really high chance..so i dnt noe..

i cnt believe its over..i dont noe why but nw i wana stay with my best frenz in IB..its so painfull to leave them..i effing cried at the end of the day...

i love u guys soo much...i dnt even noe how to describe hw much i owe u guys..

u guys have changed my life in ways that i cud never imagine. to wake up in the mornin and to noe i have the most loyal frenz in the world and then see you guys..

u guys have always kept me going thru everything..even whn weve pissed each other off.weve made it thru..we survived everythin lifes thrown at us. noone can seperate us..not one stupid school..i swear on my life that we will remain best frenz forever..we will always see each other and i wud give up everythin for u, boys, academics everything. u guys mean the world to me.

my world has never been this at peace to feel happy truly from the heart.. i will laf with yall an infinity more n i will cry with yall everytime u do.i wil never forget yall.i swear..

thanku

i love u guys to the max..

dedicated to: rena yap, rachel tan, naorin islam, saiyara shehnaz, lee se jin, elysa chen, samantha liew, melora shahabuddin.. thank u

last day?

2009-04-03T10:50:00.000+08:00

i dnt noe...everything is happening so fast..last day of term 2...alredi...we danced..we sang...in the beginnin mr cmus was makin us feel guilty..hes mad and disspointed in us but he got everythin ready..and he even wud rather hang with the myp8s then us..his own class.

and with that..i want you back..please will some honestly and loyalty this time..please...

i am gonna mis myp9 if i really go back to CIE..i never really thot i wud seperate from them..my besties are my life..i feel like cryin..i dnt wana leave my saviours...

your eyes dont lie-david aruchuleta...

loving u...

shobi

hw cud u

2009-04-01T23:09:00.000+08:00

SHOBHNA DOES NOT LOVE U!
shobhna doesnt love anyone..i have no ove to give anyone bt SOME best frenz like rena..
i tht i had the best frenz in my world..apparently
some best frenz are just actors puttin on a mask to fit in. some just pretend to just see hw the other breaks down and falls.and all of u that are confused ppl!, I AM SINGLE AND UNAVAILABLE! wt kind of a best fren cud i have expected frm u.and wt kind of person did i think u were b.ur nothin that i tht.

shobhna hates u!

dedicated to monalisa smile:)

2009-04-01T11:01:00.000+08:00

haha..im so happy AND sad at the same....sighhhh...i think some of u guys noe why...

school holidays are nxt wk:(..im gonna miss everyone..and espeicially IF i go back to CIE im gonna really miss my best frenz...im gonna miss u yap, tan, shehnaz, chen, lee, islamm, shahabuddin, liew.

haizz.i feel like cryin and laughing...so retarded...

tis mornin we watched monalisa smile for science and then we watched it till the end..its cut into our break time and our lib time[our choice]...i mean it DID have something to do with science and mr seamus said he saw each of us in the movie..i wonder which character i am?joan?betty?i wonder??

anyways...library rite nw..but we are just chillin and watchin and downloading and i wanna DANCE!!will u dance with me please?:)

update later cya!

shobi loves u

sigh.

2009-03-31T13:56:00.000+08:00

ohemgee.we finished the english exam earlier.i was like the first one to finish like i had 1 hr 15 mins left.it was fine i guess..

we are supposed to be researching agriculture thing for the humanities essay and i was but i feel like blogging..

ive been emo the entire day..haizza..so stupid...really stupid..

i mean i ended up talkin to sumaya this morn...not like i mind but nvm...

the stupid office wasnt open so i cudnt buy the white shirt:(

danggit

i wana come home to my baby in CIE..

i really miss CIE.

anyways tis morn maths was pointless..

questions i ddnt understand a thing on the board..

mr gopi was seriously blurring me out...

anyways i got a performance tonite..i dnt think i will have much time since i gotta study maths and finsih the humanities

cya love u(:

shobby

monday..randomness rulees

2009-03-30T23:23:00.000+08:00

ello

its abt 11.23 rite nw..am gonna head to bed rite nw...but im really happy

im happy the way things worked out..but once agen..sumthin ruins the day..

like a thought, a statement, or even a fight..

like comeon..why cnt things work out?!i really dnt understnad and its got me worked up...

im really reallly sad..and i just got bck from dance class.

i just hope things work out..

p/s.did CIE science exam:it was an easy exam with a few tough questions..i think its the first n last time i will study like the way i did..i only did it for mr seamus..thats all..

gt my english assesment..did aite..cnt care abt it..

wt else..I MISS U!

ily:)

loves

shobi

earth hour timee!

2009-03-28T21:06:00.001+08:00

oo EARTH HOUR!!!

am doing it RITE now!

got no parents at home..my maids outside downstairs sumwhere..and not one light is ON!

it is soo cooll..

i even went to the bathroom in the dark!

so scary

and it really scary cus its pitch dark and noones here but mee..

me,tay,naorin,mr cmus,marcus and eve are all chattin and doing EARTH HOUR!

pitch dark i SWEAR!

well tell u wt happens later!

love saving the EARTH!

but malaysia aint cooperating.SO MANY PPL NEVER turn their lights off..so stupid

but im happy im doing it=)

www.earthhour.org

sleepover-death

2009-03-28T17:26:00.000+08:00

we woke up at abt 8 this mornin..well i woke them up..really fun cus i managed to take pics of everyone while sleeping. it was funny.tay woke up once and i think she ddnt realise i was awake and she got up and then dropped to sleep agen.i woke sammy up and mel and jin and bb=)

it was funny..after that we decided to watch a movie..jurrasic park.it was tons of fun.well we barely watched..we ate our first round of breakfast of spagetti[from last nite].it was AWESUM!

then at abt 10.whn the bros came back, sammy went...mel went and had her shower too and then tay had her shower..at abt 11..or sumthin tay left..by tht time we had finished jurrasic park and we were just chilling..i refused to have a shower..i lurve my boxer, long pj pants...they rock! my camera ran outta battery=(...at abt 12.30 i had to go home=(...ddnt want to but oh well...it was tons n tons n tons of fun..

after that came home and had a niceee shower..reall good...then at abt 2.30 i went to bangsar for class..was so sleepy so ended up sleeping..

class was fine cus it was actualy prac with a kid for tuesday..

then i came home and found out sumthin...really bad news..and now im really shaken..

so blog later..

sleepover day

2009-03-27T22:18:00.001+08:00

ohemgee...am at the sleepover rite now...today was soooo longgg...

in the mornin i went to CIE..and it wasnt as usual.CIE exams today...

Maths:Mr Gopi ABSENT

PE:TIRED

Sc:debate!

english:final assesment!

after school we were waitin for bb's mum we just chilled out..

i took some pics..made some fone calls..and like 5 parents came for the orientation for MYP9!tat shows alot dnt ya think?

we were like so hyper..

then wen aunty and uncle came, we ddecided to go by 2 cars..sejins car and bb's car..me,tay,bb n melora went in bbs car while, jin, sam,sivran and serjen went in jins car.,..our car got lost and stuck int he jamm..

so by the time we reached bbs place..it was like 5..then basically weve been hyper...we nt to solaris...danced and danced and danced....apparently aida saw us in solaris?tons of funn and sumthin happen=P...something reall special happened..so ar am hyper..but nw we are chilin and 'painting our nails'..so girly!a total sleepover thing!

updates later!

cnt think and do work..it hurts

2009-03-25T08:50:00.000+08:00

went to CIE tis mornin..chilled..felt outta the circle cus there was a lot of chinese words going on...talked to B, i think it went aite...

im so confused now.and on the edge on anger.i mean am i that unbelievable..

am doing stupid english 2nd draft thing..racism..its an interesting topic..

i mean im focusing on racism in malaysia which actually if u read up online isnt the very best issure around...

but am getting distracted..

tis mornin they told us we are gonna do CIE exam papers for maths,english and science..

its so wrong and unfair...not only are we doing OUR ib work..and the IB assesments and tests and now CIE exams..triple the effing load..

mummy, daddy, get me outta tis school pleasee

i cant figure tis out

2009-03-24T23:14:00.000+08:00

its almost midnite..

im extremely tired.

i was attemptin to work on my essay whn i gt distracted..and i heard sumthin..

and that sumthin..even if nothin..causes me great worry cus..i cnt lose sumthin..i cnt fite, i gt no strength..i gt no defence...

why shud i have done sumthin stupid like that?hw can i be so mean whn someone else accepted me so much..

how can i as a best fren..do that...i dnt noe..maybe i was being a b-i-t-c-h...maybe i was high..maybe i was just so infuriated..i dnt noe..

and now dealin with one issue brings out another.

i dnt have the strength, time or energy to deal with an issue at all..

im sorry if i did anythin to hurt u...to both of u..i swear im sorry

loves

shobs

IB aint my type

2009-03-24T14:04:00.000+08:00

ohemgee..was watchin ren blog while ms kohila scolded us..

agen...

and its like not ALL of us ddnt NOT finish our work..i mean i did like almost everything..

so its kinda crap to categorize us just like that..

i mean im like totali giving up..i just wana go back to CIE..thank effin god we ddnt have maths assesment..yest nite i slept like past midnite cus its like i came home..then from 6-9.30 i had dance practise. and then i came home.i had to try and finish my art documentation and i actually studied for the math thing with my mum!...i was so tired...

at least if we were in CIE..we wudnt double the work..its like even yest we gt scolded by mr seamus..so i guess that makes us the ultimate worst students..and weve just given up....i mean i have..

ohemgee.mr michael just came in and he was being all pissed cus we ddnt pass in that orientation slip..and he even said bugger off at the end..the exact sentence being 'if u cant do somethin simple like this, then bugger off'..my parents arent even effin comin!n tis is NOT wat they asked for!

i honestly give up..if we are such a big prob..get rid of us..we are more then happy!i mean ib to me is gd but the school needs time to implement..stupid school!

i mean tis few days since like last thursday has been so wierd..rite tay, ren, and naorin....

i mean i cudnt have done it without yall and some other ppl[no need for names..*cough cough*N, jo, shahin, fs, rit*cough cough*mann that cough is killing me=)

am back home now...chilling out...got tap at 5.15..bleckkk..

grrr..i hate classes..oh yea mskohila was kinda aite cus then naorin and me presented AGAIN!after ren=)tay wanted to present but nnooo timmee....

blog later..cyaz

loves

shobi

im just me

2009-03-20T20:50:00.000+08:00

La la la, la la la

Oh baby baby have you seen Amy tonight?

Is she in the bathroom is she smokin' up outside? Oh

Oh baby baby does she take a piece of lime

For the drink that I'mma buy her do you know just what she likes? Oh

Oh oh, tell me have you seen her? Because I'm so oh

I can't get her off of my brain

I just want to go to the party she gonna go

Can somebody take me home?

Ha ha, he he, ha ha ho

Love me hate me, say what you want about me

But all of the boys and all of the girls are begging to if you seek Amy

Love me hate me, but can't you see what I see?

All of the boys and all of the girls are begging to if you seek Amy

Love me hate me, la la la, la la la

Amy told me that she's gonna meet me up

I don't know where or when and now they're closing up the club, oh

I've seen her once or twice but boy she knows my face

But it's hard to see with all the people standing in the way, oh

Oh oh, tell me have you seen her, because I'm so oh

I can't get her off of my brain

I just want to go to the party she gonna go

Can somebody take me home?

Ha ha, he he, ha ha ho

Love me hate me, say what you want about me

But all of the boys and all of the girls are begging to if you seek Amy

Love me hate me, but can't you see what I see?

All of the boys and all of the girls are begging to if you seek Amy

Love me hate me

Oh, so what you want about me?

Oh, but can't you see what I see?

Oh, so what you want about me?

La la la, la la la

So tell me if you see her

'Cause I've been waiting here forever

Oh baby baby if you seek Amy tonight

Oh baby baby we'll do whatever you like

Oh baby baby baby

La la la, la la la

Love me hate me, say what you want about me

But all of the boys and all of the girls are begging to if you seek Amy

Love me hate me, but can't you see what I see

All of the boys and all of the girls are begging to if you seek Amy

Love me hate me, say what you want about me, yeah

Love me hate me, but can't you see what I see?

All of the boys and all of the girls are begging to if you seek Amy

Love me hate me

Oh, so what you want about me?

Oh, but can't you see what I see?

Love me hate me

Oh, so what you want about me?

All of the boys and all of the girls are begging to if you seek Amy